Sanatan Sanstha and I – a jailbreak

The recently discovered trait discovered by Sanatan Sanstha will be used by Sanatan Sanstha to affect a daring jailbreak. We, together, the guru Dr Jayant Athavale and his willing and obedient disciple will spirit away a young woman right in front of her parents and bring her into the folds of spirituality. What a thought? I am so proud that I am now actively contributing to the creation of Hindu Rashtra. I am progressing rapidly on the path of spirituality.

Sanatan Sanstha gears up

The big event is scheduled almost a week away. The sadhaks on the ground have planned everything; they have primed the girl (she is an adult; we have counterchecked many times). Sanatan Sanstha needs a break and a big one. Several sadhaks have left the sanstha and new joinee ranks are not growing. A shock therapy will be good and Dr Jayant Athavale can deliver a knockout punch. He has a bunch of sadhaks to assist him, sadhaks like me who has given the control of their minds to him.

Broken lives and broken relationships.

Who cares?

 Anyhow, the sadhak is ready to fly, fly away to freedom. I relive my own situation; those tension filled days and nights, the fights, my taunts and the sheer happiness of finding my barbs hitting right on target. I can visualize the sadhaks patrolling the girl’s house. I learn that this is not only to protect the girl but it is to ensure that she does not change her mind. It is intimidating and a part of the mind control process. She cannot back out now, she has committed and the evidence is right in front of her. Most of the sadhaks are from different localities or even towns so that the family in question does not suspect anything.

The suspense is getting to me. I cannot bear it any longer.

Sanatan Sanstha shifts me

Just three days before the big event, Sanatan Sanstha arranges for my trip to Sanatan Ashram Panvel. I arrive at the first step in my freedom struggle, a confident sadhak and look back on my first tentative step in the direction of spiritual progress. I thank Dr Jayant Athavale many many times for his active intervention in my case.

I don’t have much time to gloat over my time of glory. There are thousands of loose ends that need to be tied down. This is a totally new personality, I am confident and dictate the sadhaks around me. I don’t see many familiar faces from the last visit to Sanatan Ashram Panvel but don’t have time to dwell on these petty issues.

I must be making hundreds of calls daily, but I am not worried. I am focused on the job on hand.

I want to fly away a woman to her freedom. Give her a clean break. Show her the path of spirituality. See the Godliness of Dr Jayant Athavale and his Sanatan Sanstha.

Sanatan Sanstha uses my inherent talents

The new personality trait discovered by Sanatan Sanstha opens up a different opportunity and this is discussed at several forums inside Sanatan Ashram Ponda. I can handle public affairs very successfully and also divert attention from controversial topics. In short, I am very good at lying. I also handle some critical issues in a very calm and collected manner without getting flustered. This is probed further by sadhaks as they feel I can handle other situations quite efficiently.

Flight preparations at Sanatan Sanstha

Sanatan Sanstha wants to test my commitment to the cause of Dr Jayant Athavale and his vision of Hindu Rashtra. I have demonstrated time and again that I am totally committed, I have moved away from my family and antagonized even my parents in the process. It seems that Sanatan Ashram Ponda wants to test my resolve.

The number of runaways joining Sanatan Sanstha has slowed down to a trickle. Hardly anyone has run away from their homes and joined Sanatan Ashram Ponda. As a result, PR activities have nosedived. There is also a lull in subscriptions; people seem to have lost interest in us. Viewership of Dainik Sanatan Prabhat online has nosedived. Online viewership of Sanatan website is also down. We are desperately searching for an opportunity.

In such gloomy times, we suddenly receive news from one of our kendras that they have readied one girl. She is ready to leave her home. Though the reasons are personal; her family is marrying her off though she wants to continue her studies. A series of meetings are held and I am invited to be part of many such meetings. This gives me an eagle eyes view of the preparations.

One more test by Sanatan Sanstha

This is touted as a defining period in my association with Sanatan Sanstha. I must coordinate the whole episode and ensure that the parents are instigated and lash out publicly at Sanatan. I may even be moved to Sanatan Ashram Panvel for close coordination. A mobile with a different SIM is given to me. The sanstha thinks that my phone may have some eavesdropping software installed by either my husband or parents. I don’t think so but have now learned to keep quiet. I have faced several issues in the past on account of my nature. I don’t want to lose the faith of Dr Jayant Athavale again. I must succeed. It is pointed out that I had failed in my attempts of instigating my husband.

I am determined to succeed this time and showcase Sanatan Sanstha as a showcase of Hinduvta. A place that protects girls and women and saves their souls. This will define me and my role in Sanatan Ashram Ponda and I will not lose this opportunity.

Is this related to spirituality? Are our activities even moral? Do I have the courage to question the tactics? Leave alone questioning the tactics, I am acting as an active agent. I am provoking a woman to break away from her family. I could; Sanatan Sanstha could; talk to both the parties and work out a compromise in which the girl could study. But then this would not benefit Dr Jayant Athavale. Sanatan would not derive any mileage out of this. If we print such news, nobody would read Dainik Sanatan Prabhat.

Normal life after Sanatan Ashram Ponda

I always wonder how will I spend the rest of my life post Sanatan Ashram Ponda? Sanastan Sanstha has filled my mind with a lot of junk. It is but natural. They controlled my mind to such an extent that for many years, I could not think of anything else.

Now, I have forsaken Sanatan Sanstha and the twisted logic of Dr Jayant Athavale.

I left behind my family, my relatives, my friends and social groups to immerse myself in spiritual pursuit. That was a mirage. I was sucked into a whirlpool of deceit.

I am coming out of it. My family is pulling me out of it.

But, I find it difficult to connect. The effects of hypnotism practiced by Sanatan Sanstha are yet to wear off. I feel like a hangover, a hangover one gets after a heavy dose of drugs.

Days pass before I can do anything. I fell so empty headed sometimes. I ask my husband (relationship yet not clear) to stay with me and not go out. My daughter always spends all her free time with me. They don't allow me to feel unwanted.

I have to shake off this feeling. I have to get out of the comfort zone. I have to break out of my shell. I have to start rebuilding my life.

I have to mend broken dreams and mend broken relationships.

Can I do it?

Yes, I can and I will.

I will not allow Dr Jayant Athavale to have control over my life, I will not allow Sanatan Sanstha to dictate to me - ever again.

Spirituality at Sanatan Ashram Ponda

What about spirituality at Sanatan Ashram Ponda? Am I really doing anything to increase my spiritual knowledge? Is Sanatan Sanstha teaching me about any significant spiritual practices? Well, if you consider personality defect removal process or PDR as a significant spiritual practice, then I spend a considerable part of my time in spiritual practice. I also attend several satsangs; the topics are generally repetitive and stress on Dr Jayant Athavale and his beliefs. Some of them are about naamjap and the importance of different names of God and which name we should chant. Overall, I must be spending about 4-6 hours daily in these activities, but as I am also involved in other sevas; I am part of the Swagat Kaksh at Sanatan Ashram Ponda, it is less.

Sevas equal Spirituality at Sanatan Sanstha

Other sadhaks at Sanatan Ashram Ponda spend considerable time doing naamjap. I know several sadhaks who would spend upwards to 10 hours in this chanting activity. They had several personality defects and the sanstha had advised them that chanting only could rid them of their personality defects.

All sadhaks had to participate in various activities inside the ashram. It operated as a cooperative society with responsibilities divided among the various members. We were not paid anything for the time and effort spent in these sevas. It was said that these sevas were meant to be part of our spiritual practices. I fail to understand how a service at the ashram qualifies as spiritual practices while the same done at one’s home does not. I could not raise such queries otherwise I would again have to do penance; I had experienced it many times. My attitude of questioning had landed me in hot waters

many times and though I had full faith in Dr Jayant Athavale, I was learning how to handle politics in Sanatan Sanstha. This was definitely politics; or was it? Was it a psychological method aimed at mind control. Was Sanatan using these techniques to strengthen their hold over us, using this to control our minds? Why were we unable to question such practises, why, we – independent women in our own rights, unable to raise our voices against injustices? Why were we helpless, why did we feel hopeless?

Spirituality at Sanatan Ashram Ponda

We give free service to Sanatan Ashram Ponda and equate it with spirituality. It is true across ashrams across India and maybe the rest of the world. There is nothing wrong about this. What is wrong is that only occupants of the ashram must give this seva. Outsiders, including sadhaks are not required to do this. They can spend their time as they want to. We stay at the ashram of Sanatan Sanstha and we do not or cannot pay for our lodging and boarding. The sanstha recovers the cost in this manner. They use us as slaves. As it is cloaked in spirituality, we do not feel a burden. But frankly, we are slaves of Dr Jayant Athavale both in mind and body. We are not independent; we cannot think independently. Sanatan Sanstha has taken away this ability from us and we are proud of this fact.

God, please help us to come out of this maya jaal. Only you can save us from Dr Jayant Athavale and Sanatan Sanstha. Many sadhaks staying at Sanatan Ashram Ponda pray to God to seek His intervention; He blesses only some of us.

Why does Sanatan Ashram Ponda not allow journalists

The entry to Sanatan Ashram Ponda is said to be open to all. All are invited to visit the main ashram of Sanatan Sanstha. However, we are asked to keep a special lookout for journalists. Journalists who visit the ashram without informing us generally do not write positively about us. They are always on the lookout for some sensational news. After all, they are always demeaning Hindu religion and generally do not write anything positive about Dr Jayant Athavale.

Sanatan Ashram Ponda hides several secrets

Sanatan Ashram Ponda has several secrets that it does not want the public to see. It needs to control the information flow about the ashram, the activities going on inside and some of its occupants. Normal visitors; visitors who come to meet their relatives under the mind control of Sanatan Sanstha or visitors coming out of curiosity, are handled differently. They are given a well-defined tour of the ashram by a trained sadhak. Controversial locations are avoided and the sadhak bombards the visitors with sublime messages. These messages are intended to capture their mind and attack the sub-conscious mind. They generally ask harmless questions.

Journalists are a different breed altogether. We are trained to identify and isolate them. I have handled such instances during my seva at the swagat kaksh of Sanatan Ashram Ponda. Red lights go off whenever we detect such visitors. They are handled by very senior sadhaks and if they appear to be troublesome, they are immediately asked to leave the premises. Stories are also planted in the social media like Twitter.com and Facebook.com and print media. Dainik Sanatan Prabhat also highlights such intrusive visits. Sanatan Sanstha plays the role of the underdog to the full. The sadhaks all react with horror on hearing such stories.

Now, when I am free, relatively speaking, from the mind control tactics of Sanatan Sanstha, I realize the futility of such measures.

Cupboard of secrets in Sanatan Ashram Ponda

Agreed that Sanatan Ashram Ponda has several cupboards full of secrets. Most of the occupants are not aware of most of them. Hiding a fugitive from law enforcement agencies is only a small secret. Several secrets are more damaging. The point is that Sanatan Sanstha can devise a different manner to handle journalist visits. They can turn the visit into an opportunity.

Come to think of it, they really turn the visit into an opportunity. They are not targeting the outside public; that is handled by the sadhaks during the prachar seva. They are targeting the minds of the sadhaks and create an impression about oppression, first to the Hindu Dharma and our way of life. Then, they focus on Sanatan Sanstha and Sanatan Ashram Ponda. The real purpose of the visit is forgotten by everybody, we start believing in the lies spread by Sanatan and Dr Jayant Athavale turns our mind against media.

We lose ourselves into the truthfulness of Sanatan. The outside world is a dangerous world and only Sanatan Sanstha can protect us. We are safe only if we remain inside Sanatan Ashram Ponda.

How does Sanatan Sanstha handle criticisms

A spiritual organization like Sanatan Sanstha should not be bothered about criticisms. We are taught to let go of our ego during the personality defect removal process or PDR. Yet, Sanatan is very sensitive towards any negative publicity.

Sanatan Sanstha tackles negativity

Sanatan Sanstha uses two methods to tackle negative stories. It uses social media very effectively, it has well-maintained accounts on Twitter as well as Facebook. These accounts are used to tweet, retweet or post spirituality related news and announcements. Negative comments are handled by the sadhaks, they use multiple accounts and bombard such comments. They also retweet very aggressively. The commentator is bombarded with negative comments and name calling. These sadhaks cannot be traced back to Sanatan Sanstha. The media wing is very active in this regard. The first line of defense is to call such a person anti-Hindu, Hindu hater, and similar words. That is the reason we do not see any real experiences from real persons. I have built up the strength to write, I am also using Twitter.com to show the world what Sanatan really stands for.  I am not promoting my blog; I don’t want to sell anything and I am definitely not anti-Hindu. I support spirituality; in fact, I ran away to Dr Jayant Athavale to get spiritual knowledge.

The social media route in one way to stifle negative news. It is used extensively by commercial organizations. Spiritual organizations should not use it; in fact, they don’t require it. A person should be able to handle such criticisms proactively. The reason Sanatan Sanstha cannot digest negativity is because it is not a spiritual organization. It has a hidden agenda and that agenda is not related to Hindu Dharma or Hindu Rashtra. It is connected directly with the aspirations of Dr Jayant Athavale.

Legal notices by Sanatan Sanstha

Sanatan uses a very traditional method to stifle media and its critics. It slaps legal notices on such organizations and individuals. The compensation demanded is quite large and many individuals cannot even dream of such sums of money. They prefer to withdraw their remarks and offer an apology to Sanatan Sanstha. Organizations are similarly targeted. Defamation cases can be filed anywhere, Sanatan uses this lacuna to flood anyone with litigation.

In spite of all such strong-arm tactics, most of the media organizations carry on their work and give a factual report. Many individuals also carry on their fight; many times their personal fight. A Public Interest Litigation has been filed in Bombay High Court by four different families containing serious allegations.

Why does Sanatan resort to such strong-arm tactics to silence its critics? Does a spiritual organization require such tactics? Why cannot it handle criticisms? Maybe, because they are true. And the sanstha and Dr Jayant Athavale knows that if they are exposed for what they really are, the sadhaks will leave them.

It seems to be happening. It is only a small tickle, but I can see the small tickle. A small tickle can easily convert into a torrent. Nothing can stop it; nothing should stop it. People will realize the truth of Sanatan Sanstha and leave it; whether government bans it or not.

Different personality at Sanatan Ashram Ponda

The reassignment of work at Sanatan Ashram Ponda is a blessing in disguise. I and Sanatan Sanstha discover a different and hidden aspect of my personality; I can handle stress; enormous amount of stress without losing my cool. I handle some very tricky situations at the swagat kaksh of Sanatan Ashram Ramnathi and in the process, earn some long-needed goodwill of high ranking sadhaks. These sadhaks are quite influential though they do not have any pompous sounding designations. Their words carry a lot of weight in Sanatan Sanstha and they are keeping a close watch on me. I thank Dr Jayant Athavale for all his blessings, only his blessings have made this possible otherwise I was down in the dumps.

A different persona Sanatan Sanstha

The different me is really a different persona at Sanatan Sanstha. I have handled two critical incidents at Sanatan Ashram Ponda and handled them in such a manner that there was a lot of goodwill generated for me and the sanstha. Both relate to some queries raised by the police department. In one situation, they are on the point of conducting a raid. I play them around till some significant persons disappear from the premises of Sanatan Ashram Ramnathi. I will not share the complete details; who knows the police or even Sanatan will try to silence me. Silence me in the same way they have silenced some troublesome sadhaks. Sanatan Sanstha does not trust anybody and if a person is privy to confidential knowledge or information, they take special care of them. Not my words but those uttered by a senior sadhak to my rakshak after I escaped from their clutches and ran away from Sanatan Ashram Ponda.

The other incident is not open to public consumption but relates to a police spy. The police had planted a spy in our midst but I could identify him very easily. He escaped with his life, I regretted it at that time. Dr Jayant Athavale had control over my mind and I could only think about him and his safety.

Another dimension of my personality

This different dimension of my personality opens a host of opportunities to the sadhaks of Sanatan Sanstha and to me as well. I can now be assigned to perform several high-level sevas. I am about to join a close-knit group within Sanatan Ashram Ponda; a group so well knit that hardly anybody is aware of it.

This development does not go down well with my rakshak. I am surprised as I felt that she would be very happy for me. I think it is envy. Though she has spent several years at Sanatan Ashram Ramnathi, she has never reached my level. She has a serious issue of personality defect; envy and that interferes with her spiritual progress. I have a serious talk with her one day but she does not reply to my accusations; in fact, she is silent throughout. She only looks at me with her soul-searching eyes.

I realize later on that I was entering a deep quagmire; one which would make it impossible to escape. But, I didn’t want to escape.  I wanted to be enveloped by the Chaitanya of Dr Jayant Athavale and his Sanatan Sanstha.