Sanatan Sanstha at Police Station

Despite grave provocation, sadhaks at Sanatan Sanstha stand their ground. The lady sadhak is also firm and reiterates that she wants to seek the guidance of Dr Jayant Athavale to seek spirituality and stay forever at Sanatan Ashram Ponda. She refuses to go back to her parents.

Sanatan Sanstha wins another round

All the action is filmed by sadhaks of Sanatan Sanstha. The media is out in full strength outside Sanatan Ashram Panvel. They are not covering the event live but we are satisfied with their presence. It is happening just in time for the prime evening news and we will get good coverage. A substantial crowd has gathered outside the ashram and we have stationed some of the sadhaks in plain clothes. They are voicing their opinion to the media. This is an important part of the overall strategy and shows the level of planning by sadhaks under the guidance of Dr Jayant Athavale. They oppose anyone criticising Sanatan Sanstha and their numbers ensure that the media listens to them. Some of the local persons are also convinced that the fault lies with the parents and not with the Sanstha. They are our future recruits.

If this is not mind control, then what is this? Is this about spirituality; is Sanatan Sanstha propagating spirituality by this manner?

Action at the police station

But wait, the real action is yet to begin. The drama now shifts to the police station. The lady sadhak and her family are taken to the police station. We depute only a few of our sadhaks there as we are busy preparing for the next stage; a crucial stage – the press conference.

I don’t go to the police station but am able to hear the entire conversation live courtesy a sadhak. My lady sadhak, the disciple of Dr Jayant Athavale does me proud once again. She has lived up to the occasion, she has not faltered anywhere. She gives a clear cut statement that she has left her house on her free will and wants to join Sanatan Sanstha as a full-time devotee. Her parents cannot force her as she is an adult. The game is over for her parents. They lose their emotional balance. They have lost her. Sanatan Sanstha has won again.

The news is conveyed to the media gallery. The parents and her relatives are filmed leaving the station heartbroken and defeated. What a great psychological image; we realise the significance immediately. I realise the importance of the image and keep a copy for further reference. I can visualise the heading in Sanatan Prabhat Marathi. It will read “True Spirituality wins over evil forces” and will carry an image of the lady sadhak and another of her defeated family leaving the police station.  

But, I have other things on my mind. I must prepare for the press conference. I must crown Sanatan Sanstha in such positivity that the image stays in the mind for a long time.

Do I realise the immorality of my act? I have separated a family; I have destroyed a family; all in the name of spirituality. I have acted under the spell of Sanatan Sanstha and Dr Jayant Athavale. My mind is controlled by them. 

Can I ever attain Mooksha? Can I ever redeem my bad Karma?

Circus at Sanatan Sanstha

The day arrived very early and Sanatan Sanstha was ready for a big catfight. The sadhaks had rallied throughout the night. They were replaced in the morning by another team. Sanatan and Dr Jayant Athavale had many supporters, they were ready to do anything for the sanstha and their guru. They were controlled by the sanstha.

The first fight at Sanatan Ashram Panvel

We had an early breakfast called न्याहारी in our terminology at Sanatan Ashram Panvel. We used special words, these were difficult for the aam Janata – the normal people, to understand and we stood apart. We were part of a special team. We belonged.  We were spiritually enlightened, we were guided by Dr Jayant Athavale.

We had to show that there was nothing amiss, routine activities were carried out at the ashram premises. This was a show put together by Sanatan Sanstha.

The parents and their assorted relatives arrived. There were about a dozen of them. They demanded to meet the lady. I was in the reception area called swagat kaksh and I offered to show them around Sanatan Ashram Panvel first. They abused me and asked to see their daughter immediately. Though taken back, I recovered immediately and without losing my cool, asked them to speak softly and maintain decorum as other sadhaks were practising sadhana. This was meant to provoke them again and it hit the mark. They again abused me and Sanatan Sanstha. All this was being secretly recorded.

I asked the sadhaks to get the lady sadhak. She came down on her own. This was going exactly as per the plan. She appeared regal walking down the central staircase, there were no emotions on her face. She was not looking at her parents at all. I knew at that moment that my efforts had paid off.

Spirituality and Sanatan Sanstha

What is the connection between this story and spirituality? How does Sanatan Sanstha associate this kind of behaviour with spirituality? Do we question this; question or actions? Do we even think that we are participating in an immoral act?

We are beyond all this. Dr Jayant Athavale controls our mind to such an extent that we can no longer differentiate between good and bad. The lady sadhak is totally hypnotised by Sanatan Sanstha, she will now stay permanently at Sanatan Ashram Ponda. Dr Athavale has succeeded again.

The process is so simple, anyone can replicate it. But, the battle is not yet over. The main act is yet to begin.

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At last a jailbreak and redemption at Sanatan Sanstha

The previous week and hectic preparation by Sanatan Sanstha will be put on test today. She is going to run away to Dr Jayant Athavale and if I can handle it well, the episode will become a jewel in the crown; for me as well as for Sanatan. The sadhaks on the ground are ready; they must maintain “radio silence”. There is apprehension that some government institutions are taking interest in us. We have been trained on such aspect. Sanatan Sanstha is taking all precautions; it is banking very heavily on this episode and I am under tremendous stress. I am confident that I will be able to deliver the goods provided the sadhak is handed over to me.

The flight to Sanatan Sanstha

The planning bears fruit and the sadhak makes her break for Sanatan Sanstha. The timing is perfect and news filters in from different sources. She is expected to reach Sanatan Ashram Panvel around afternoon. She stays near Mumbai so the transit time is less.

As per the plan and the instructions given, she should call her parents as soon as she reaches Sanatan Sanstha Ashram and she should reach on her own. These are standard operating procedures and I too had followed them; I don’t have time to think about the past, the future is waiting for me. I can visualize Dr Jayant Athavale welcoming me into the inner circle at Sanatan Sanstha with open hands.

I see her for the first time after she reaches the ashram gates. She is frail and looks a little lost. Drawing from my experience, I welcome her and immediately offer her food. This will calm her down. While she is eating, I talk to her and look inside her mind. My guru, Dr Athavale’s techniques on mind control are needed here. I think that she is regretting her step already and I cannot let that happen. I shift immediately on getting her to focus on the future and how she will contribute to the establishment of Hindu Rashtra and how Dr Jayant Athavale is the true spiritual guide – the Guru.

I needle her about the family. I have plenty of background information. The local sadhaks have given me a lot to work on. I pick up specific instances. This must be done diplomatically. I must initiate a trance state before working my magic. Thanks to Sanatan Sanstha and the training given over the past fortnight, I have mastered the basics. She is again primed and only about an hour has passed. She calls up her parents in front of me and as per the instructions just informs them that she is safe and at Sanatan Ashram Panvel. The conversation lasts for less than a minute and she switches off the mobile.

The stage is set for Act II of our cosmic play – Sanatan Sanstha and Mind Control.

Sanatan Sanstha has engineered one more defection and I am proud of my role in broken dreams and broken relationships. What a transformation? I would be appalled at such instances just six months ago, and today I am a conspirator. Dr Jayant Athavale controls my mind and soul.

Can I come out of this vicious circle ever again?

Spirituality at Sanatan Ashram Ponda

What about spirituality at Sanatan Ashram Ponda? Am I really doing anything to increase my spiritual knowledge? Is Sanatan Sanstha teaching me about any significant spiritual practices? Well, if you consider personality defect removal process or PDR as a significant spiritual practice, then I spend a considerable part of my time in spiritual practice. I also attend several satsangs; the topics are generally repetitive and stress on Dr Jayant Athavale and his beliefs. Some of them are about naamjap and the importance of different names of God and which name we should chant. Overall, I must be spending about 4-6 hours daily in these activities, but as I am also involved in other sevas; I am part of the Swagat Kaksh at Sanatan Ashram Ponda, it is less.

Sevas equal Spirituality at Sanatan Sanstha

Other sadhaks at Sanatan Ashram Ponda spend considerable time doing naamjap. I know several sadhaks who would spend upwards to 10 hours in this chanting activity. They had several personality defects and the sanstha had advised them that chanting only could rid them of their personality defects.

All sadhaks had to participate in various activities inside the ashram. It operated as a cooperative society with responsibilities divided among the various members. We were not paid anything for the time and effort spent in these sevas. It was said that these sevas were meant to be part of our spiritual practices. I fail to understand how a service at the ashram qualifies as spiritual practices while the same done at one’s home does not. I could not raise such queries otherwise I would again have to do penance; I had experienced it many times. My attitude of questioning had landed me in hot waters

many times and though I had full faith in Dr Jayant Athavale, I was learning how to handle politics in Sanatan Sanstha. This was definitely politics; or was it? Was it a psychological method aimed at mind control. Was Sanatan using these techniques to strengthen their hold over us, using this to control our minds? Why were we unable to question such practises, why, we – independent women in our own rights, unable to raise our voices against injustices? Why were we helpless, why did we feel hopeless?

Spirituality at Sanatan Ashram Ponda

We give free service to Sanatan Ashram Ponda and equate it with spirituality. It is true across ashrams across India and maybe the rest of the world. There is nothing wrong about this. What is wrong is that only occupants of the ashram must give this seva. Outsiders, including sadhaks are not required to do this. They can spend their time as they want to. We stay at the ashram of Sanatan Sanstha and we do not or cannot pay for our lodging and boarding. The sanstha recovers the cost in this manner. They use us as slaves. As it is cloaked in spirituality, we do not feel a burden. But frankly, we are slaves of Dr Jayant Athavale both in mind and body. We are not independent; we cannot think independently. Sanatan Sanstha has taken away this ability from us and we are proud of this fact.

God, please help us to come out of this maya jaal. Only you can save us from Dr Jayant Athavale and Sanatan Sanstha. Many sadhaks staying at Sanatan Ashram Ponda pray to God to seek His intervention; He blesses only some of us.

Reassignment at Sanatan Ashram Ponda

Sanatan Sanstha punishes me for a minor slip of the tongue at one satsang at Sanatan Ashram Ponda. I get very emotional about this but do not let it affect my resolve. I am firm that I will serve my Guru Dr Jayant Athavale and seek spiritual growth under his guidance. I am ready to enlist my daughter into the fold of Sanatan and also reach out to my husband. In short, I am ready to do anything. Anything except see the writing on the wall. The writing clearly says that Sanatan Sanstha practices mind control techniques; it lures women and men alike and controls their minds; makes them do what the sanstha wants.

 Swagat kaksh at Sanatan Ashram Ponda

I think my resolve wins in the end and I am reassigned to be part of the Swagat Kaksh at Sanatan Ashram Ponda. Every day I report to the main reception area. My job is to handle the telephone console and pass on important messages to the concerned sadhaks. I should be aware of the various activities of the ashram as well as arrival and departure of many important sadhaks. I am also responsible for informing them about any raids by police or any other government agencies. The responsibility is enormous as Sanatan Sanstha has been raided several times in the past. However, in most cases, they were unable to find what they were after. It is the responsibility of the Swagat Kaksh at Sanatan Ashram Ponda to give information as fast as possible so that necessary arrangements can be made.

I take this as a challenging job and handle all the calls.

Frantic relatives and a stone wall

I also serve as a stone wall between frantic relatives and runaway sadhaks. I must have encountered about a dozen such cases. When a runaway sadhak reaches Sanatan Ashram Ramnathi, we generally put a safety net over her. She is handled very carefully. The relatives may lure her away from Sanatan Sanstha else they may create a ruckus at the ashram premises. We actually like it if they create a scene and pick up a fight. Our media arm has good connections with sympathetic media organizations. These media persons can reach the ashram within minutes and cover the whole episode very well. They also give a sympathetic angle so that Sanatan comes out like a good organization being harassed by evil doers.

This has a ripple effect and our sadhaks who wish to fly away to the ashram are motivated to do so. We also attract several other seekers. The concerned sadhak also loses faith in her family and starts trusting Sanatan Sanstha completely. She becomes a permanent feature at Sanatan Ashram Ponda. She hands over control of mind to Dr Jayant Athavale.

Apart from this seva, I have to offer seva in the kitchen. Now, I get sufficient time to attend all satsangs and also participate in many activities. I get my food on time. I think that I am redeemed finally and Sanatan Sanstha has finally and totally accepted me.

I belong to Dr Jayant Athavale and Sanatan Sanstha.

My Daughter A Sanatan Sevak

Isn’t it funny that the only solution to regain Sanatan Sanstha’s trust was to make my daughter a Sanatan Sevak. I thought, at that time that this was a perfect solution. Sanatan had grounded me once again and this time, all my so-called perks and benefits had been withdrawn.

Cause and effect at Sanatan Ashram Ponda

Was this related to my prarabdha and Karma or was I part of a systematic plan at Sanatan Ashram Ponda? I was not in the mental condition to think this out; Dr Jayant Athavale had full control of my mind. He had taken charge of my sub-conscious and conscious mind through the various mind control techniques. A small insignificant comment had a very drastic effect.

As I realized later, Sanatan used such cause and effect principle on any sadhak they doubted on. This made a person like me do anything to stay in their good books. They would slowly tighten the screws so that the sadhak would no longer have any other alternative. There were several sadhaks at Sanatan Ashram Ponda who had undergone this process. The after-effects of repeated use were very negative and drastic. I have seen a person lose his mental stability after one such penance – cause and effect impact. This was the tipping point for me, I will come back later on this.

The solution and Sanatan Sanstha

Bringing my daughter under the fold of Sanatan Sanstha and getting her to live with me at Sanatan Ashram Ponda solved several problems in one go. First of all, I would be able to bring her up in the proper manner of Hindu Dharma. She would be taught all the Vedas and Shastra in proper Sanskrit. Though she has learning disabilities, I was sure that she would cope. Secondly, she would also start her spiritual journey at a very early age. Her progress would be very fast. I would also get her treated by the Chakra specialist as I felt that her main issue was Chakra imbalance. She would be an ideal patient on which to carry out several path-breaking experiments. I would also get some emotional company; I used to feel quite lonely and missed my family, especially during nights. Who knows, my husband would also follow both of us into Sanatan Sanstha. He could bear the loss of one but I was sure that he could not bear to part with both of us – we were the stars of his eyes.

The plan was to talk to my daughter when she was alone. I knew that if I tried to speak to her in my husband’s presence, she would not listen. I waited for several days before I made the call to the landline. Hoping that my daughter would pick up, I prayed to Dr Jayant Athavale to fulfill my wishes. My prayers were answered and my daughter, my beloved daughter picked up. I spoke very softly to her. But, her words chilled me to the bone. She said that she hated me and Sanatan Sanstha, hated me for what I had done to her father. She would not like to speak to me and hoped never to see me. She hated Sanatan Sanstha will all her heart.

I broke down, broke down because my daughter was surrounded by demonic forces. These forces were making her say this. She had lost her mental balance.

Why does Sanatan demoralise me

Sanatan Sanstha seems to be using a delicate balance of punishment and motivation on me. Am I the only one to suffer like this or is it a common practice? This attitude is keeping me on my toes. I am now always cautious not hurt anybody at Sanatan Ashram Ponda. I learn to control my tongue and speak when spoken to. I do not give my views on any subject even when asked to. I always appear to be very demure.

I change to match Sanatan Sanstha

I seem to have changed a lot. It starts with lying to my family. I don’t consider it a sin to lie to my family. Then, I slowly change the way I dress. I also spend more time doing activities that bind me to Sanatan Sanstha like chanting and personality defect removal process. I also become totally involved in doing prachar seva from my home. My personality undergoes a drastic change. I change my social group and alienate my friends and relatives. I do not think I have done it after being prompted by Sanatan, but now I realize that they used behavior changing techniques on me. They used subtle mind control techniques so that I start relying on them for everything.

This continues even at Sanatan Ashram Ponda. The process is quite different when they realize that I have burnt all the bridges and have immersed myself into following Dr Jayant Athavale. They use a carrot and stick approach so that I am always mentally unstable. I don’t have any other resource on which to rely on. The information flow is controlled by them totally. I don’t feel the need to read newspapers. I read only Dainik Sanatan Prabhat. In fact, at Sanatan Ashram Ramnathi, daily newspapers are not read by any sadhaks. They are available in the media section. In fact, the media section has a couple of television sets, they are always watching news channels. They use breaking news and prepare the newsletters based on them.

Psychological tricks

Once outside Sanatan Sanstha, I start to correlate these with the psychological techniques used on me. Sanatan has used many tricks and techniques and modified them. The end result is mind control. Dr Jayant Athavale seems to have spent several years in developing such techniques. I sometimes think that the Spiritual Science Research Foundation or SSRF is engaged in developing and refining such processes which can control the minds of the sadhaks. I was involved in the process for some time though not directly. Hypnosis has also been studied quite extensively, I know the person involved in doing so. I will not name her but she was an expert on this subject and she had confided that she learned this art from Dr Jayant Athavale. I was taught by this female sadhak and was involved in designing some of the mind control techniques. I did not understand the rationale behind them at that time but the process of testing was quite elaborate.

Sanatan Sanstha uses a process of punishment and motivation to keep the sadhaks at Sanatan Ashram Ponda under control. These psychological techniques lead to behavioral changes that can last a lifetime.

Initial euphoria and Sanatan Sanstha

Sanatan Sanstha creates a sense of euphoria

The initial days at Sanatan Sanstha creates a sense of euphoria within me. I feel a sense of belonging; a sense of belonging and a supreme sense of Anand or bliss. I am aware that I am missing something; missing the company of my family but I have no time to dwell on it. The sanstha does not give me time to dwell on it. The thought enters my mind but whenever I think about it; I start thinking about sewa, my guru Dr Jayant Athavale and the other sadhaks. Just a couple of weeks at Sanatan Ashram Ponda has been enough to program my mind so much that I cannot even think independently. I realise this later, much later and the realization is brought about by a big tragedy. I will take you through the tragedy at a later stage.

Tears still well up in my eyes even today as I write about that period. How could I do it? How could I lose control of my mind? What did they seek to achieve through mind control? I shudder to even think what could have happened had I not escaped in time.

Broken Dreams and Broken Relationships.

Attachment with Sanatan Sanstha

The attachment with Sanatan Sanstha is so strong that I need their permission to even breathe. I do not think that this is a bad thing, after all, my Guru, Dr Jayant Athavale is to lead me on the correct path and I should surrender myself to him.

The attachment also means that I open up about my inner most feelings and thoughts with the sadhaks. This is done very skilfully. After all, they are experts in mind control. Slowly but surely, in a matter of days, I have narrated my life history and have opened up about my relationships. I have shared my innermost feelings and my deepest fears. I have shared such experiences in my earlier posts.

The sanstha now turns my positive memories into negative ones. Each of my experiences are made out to be bad ones and it is instilled that my family was never mine in the first place. I was just an instrument in their hands and they used me – my family, to fulfil their physical needs. My parents, my husband and my daughter are all selfish. They do not understand me and don’t want to understand me. Sanatan Sanstha stops just short of calling them shaitans, demons and devils. I cannot tolerate this nomenclature but I accept their reasoning.

I also share several other details with Sanatan Sanstha, most of them not connected with spirituality. I have forgotten the advice given by my rakshak and in my haste to please my masters, I have opened  my family to unforeseen dangers. I am in no condition to gauge this. My mind is now controlled by the sanstha, I follow the path laid out by Dr Jayant Athavale. I am not free, I am a zombie.

Sanatan Sanstha dictates My Personal Life

Sanatan Sanstha tries to calm waters

Sanatan Sanstha played a double role in my life. They first set my house on fire and now they try to “stop” the fire. They started the fire by making me lie to my family, by losing their trust and by making me frustrated. Just when the fire threatened to engulf my home completely, Sanatan steps in to douse the fire.

The Reconciliation Process

The sanstha lays the blame squarely on my family. They say that it has never supported me as they have a tamasic nature. They are idol worshippers but do not follow the true Sanatan Dharma as laid down by the scriptures. They show me several evidences that evil spirits have gained control of my home and my family. They show black spots on old photos, they show how idols in my home have turned black (the idols are silver idols and become black due to oxidation as per science, Sanatan Sanstha says that they become black when evil spirits are present).

They try to counsel my family. The sanstha asks them to join them and propagate Sanatan Dharma. My father-in-law is a well-known social worker. He objects and argues with them. He points out their defects and asks them to leave the house. This is shown as further proof about my family. My father-in-law is now totally against the sanstha. Sanatan suggests that I and my family separate for some time. I go to live at my parents’ house in Pune. 

My husband comes to take me back and I reluctantly agree. By this time, my parents have also turned against the Sanstha. I promise not to do anything with the sanstha.

But, why should Sanatan leave me alone? They have invested a lot in me; time and energy and I am now open to their suggestions.

They call me up repeatedly. I hide the calls from my husband and family. I go out and secretly meet them. Now, the second part of the reconciliation process happens.

My husband catches up

My husband discovers that I am still involved in Sanatan Sanstha. He tries to understand me and allows me time to adjust. The Sanstha people counsel me that my husband will not change; he does not want to change. I should look after my home as if it is part of the sanstha. I should consider my home as a Satanan Sanstha Ashram and my family members as sadhaks. I should serve them as if I am serving my Guru and the sanstha.

This has disastrous consequences. My mind refuses to accept the difference between fact and reality. I am going mad.

Dr Jayant Athavale has total control on my mind. I am a slave to Sanatan Sanstha. I cannot think of anything else. A hypnotherapist has worked his methods on me through pure psychological methods. He has not hypnotized me, he has brainwashed me.

My husband now gives me an ultimatum, either I stay with him and leave Sanatan else I leave him and align totally with the Sanstha.

Broken Dreams and Broken Relationships.

Sanatan Sanstha controls my life

Sanatan Sanstha 24X7

I am no longer in control of my life as Sanatan Sanstha has total control over it. The sanstha has started dictating each minute of my day and night, I wake up when I am told to do so; I eat as per Sanatan’s wishes, I even alter my relationships as per their wishes. The website; www.sanatan.org contains instructions on each and every aspect of life and they say that these are as per our purans and holy books. They have done a lot of research on these subjects. They have instructions on how to bathe, how to comb hair and even on how to urinate. These are taught to us during the daily satsangs. My mind accepts them as if these are the words of God, no questions asked.

Time is of the essence now; the twenty-four hours of a day are insufficient for me. This has been drummed into my mind and it has found easy acceptance. A “saint” spent many hours with us explaining the importance of time. He said that if we are doing sadhana for 2 hours, we should do for 4 hours, if we do for 4 hours daily, we should increase it to 8 hours and if we do for 12 hours, we should spend the entire day in doing sadhana. This is possible only at the Sanatan Sanstha ashram.

I used to do sadhana for 16 hours; practically I spent all my waking hours with Sanatan Sanstha. The saint just smiled and replied that I should do more. All the sadhaks agreed with him, I also promised that I would do so.

Personality defect removal

The sanstha also taught me the use of auto-suggestion as a means of removing personality defects. I was overawed by the feeling of spirituality flowing over me. I felt Chaitanya. The sanstha was taking me on a higher plane of sub-consciousness. I do not realize that the use of suggestions is a very old trick of hypnotists like Dr Jayant Athavale. I now know that once you start accepting suggestions from a person or a group of persons, they can use it to change your behaviour, change your opinions and beliefs and ultimately control your body and soul. I have sold my soul to Sanatan Sanstha.

An educated sane woman with a very loving family and stable background has become a walking zombie.

Broken dreams and broken relationships.

The personality removal process is a very elaborate one and central to the sanstha’s activities. I learn about its importance during my stay at the ashram and also understand the devious means the sanstha uses it. But, for now, I am sold on the sanstha.

I use the techniques taught during personality defect removal process on my family. But, I am a novice. Now I understand that only “saints” of Sanatan Sanstha are trained in this key psychological process. This must be handled carefully otherwise results are disappointing. I know because I was taught this at the ashram, I was an expert in the process.

The psychological methods and techniques are generally used for the benefit of mankind. In the hands of a skilled hypnotherapist like Dr Jayant Athavale, they take on a sinister form. Nothing good can ever come out of it.

How can you save Sanatan Sanstha?

• ·         The first step in Sanatan Sanstha’s inoculation campaign is to identify gullible people like me. People who has a holier than thou approach towards themselves – like me. I was so full of myself, so taken up by my vision of the world and my exalted position in it. They start slow. The first step is to attract spiritual persons or people with a spiritual bend of mind. We attend satsangs and are told to pray for the well-being of the nation.
• ·         The second step is now to reinforce this bond. They concentrate on Hindu Dharma or Sanatan Dharma. The attacks on Hindus are highlighted. The situation in the country and the prosecution of Hindus are discussed. Followers are encouraged to speak about the atrocities. Their website is full of such articles. I remember once when riding my two-wheeler, I dashed against a person from another community and he abused me. I spoke about this in one of the satsangs and the other sadhaks treated this as an attacked on a poor Hindu woman. I also started believing this.
• ·         Sanatan Sanstha knows that the bond is still weak. They now concentrate on my mind. They talk about the guru and gurushisha parampara. The importance of guru for spiritual upliftment is stressed repeatedly. “Saints” now join in for the discourses. The header of the main page of the website shows an image of a discipline offering respects to his guru.
• ·         I am asked to do naamjap, the sanstha says that naamjap – taking the name of Gods is different from meditation. Naamjap yields results. I believe them. Today, I know that meditation and naamjap are same as per Hindu Shastra; as per Hindu Dhrama. Sanatan wants to differentiate itself and hence shows that both are different.
• ·         Stickers with Gods and Goddesses’ names are purchased by me. I stick them all around my home. I think of the sanstha all throughout the day. This leads to the first conflict with my husband. Broken Dreams and Broken Relationships. A crack is formed; waiting to be exploited.
• ·         My family, my home, my fort no longer appeal to me. I think Sanatan Sanstha, I dream about my Guru and all my actions are dictated by the sanstha.
• ·         The focus now shifts from attacks on Hindu Dharma to attacks on Sanatan Sanstha. I am asked to do naamjap at different times. Someone phones me and informs me that evil spirits will be attacking the sanstha at a particular time. I can save the sanstha through my bhakti. I have done naamjap several times during nights, waking up at 2 am, 3 am or even not sleeping throughout the night. I became so habituated that I used to get up at 4 a.m. to do naamjap for many years.

The sanstha has gained control of my mind. I am no longer thinking rationally. I am their slave. I am a sadhak. I belong to Santan Sanstha.