The pre-lunch sessions can
stretch quite long as I have a tight schedule dictated by Sanatan Ashram
Ramnathi. There are times when I miss my lunch. As Sanatan Sanstha has adviced
me not to eat food outside, I
spend many days without any proper food. It is a small sacrifice I make in
the service of my Guru, Dr Jayant Athavale and I do not mind it at all; in fact,
I am quite proud of this and other sadhaks praise this attitude.
Post-lunch Sessions and Satsangs
Even though I may not have eaten
anything, I still must attend the afternoon satsangs. Several personality
defects have been identified in the morning sessions and I must do penance to
rid them from my inner self. This will enable me to lose myself and my
identity. The subjects of these satsangs revolve around Gurukrupayoga,
personality defect removal process, importance of Samashti seva as well as
importance of traditions and different festivals as prescribed by Sanatan
Dharma. Sanatan Sanstha has a very good collection of publications and through
the scientific research conducted by Spiritual
Science Research Foundation or SSRF in short, they have explained the
scientific reasoning behind our traditions.
There are several repetitions in
the subjects, I do not mind this. I am still a novice and have a lot to learn.
I have sacrificed my life to sit in the lap of my Guru, Dr Jayant Athavale.
Post afternoon sessions
I leave for my prachar work as
soon as the satsangs end. I spend about four hours in the morning and afternoon
prachar sessions. The return to Sanatan Ashram Ramnathi is around 7 pm, just in
time for a light dinner. Dinner is very simple and consists of rice and dal.
The hectic schedule and the Chaitanya of the ashram ensures that my diet intake
is very less.
I do not mind even though I have
lost a lot of weight during the three months at Sanatan Ashram Ponda.
Once our dinner is over, we
attend a session of personality defect removal process for a couple of hours.
Then, we have free time. We spend this time discussing various issues facing
the country and the excellent steps undertaken by Sanatan Sanstha to resolve them.
Such discussions generally last for two to three hours and it is generally 11
pm by the time I go to sleep. I don’t feel like sleeping and hence I spend at
least another hour or two in doing naamjap – chanting.
I am accountable to my time and
feel that sleep is actually a waste of time. I should rather use this time for
some productive work. Contacting my family is also a waste of time. I don’t have
anything to discuss with them. I don’t attend to their calls most of the days.
I hope they get the message and leave me alone. I will contact me when I need
something from them, like clothes and money. Otherwise, they should not worry
about me and disturb me in my seva. Sanatan Ashram Ramnathi is taking good care
and has everything I need.
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